My son made me realize alot today!

It took my son today to make me realize that its time for me let go of my past & the anger I have been holding for the past 4 years towards my ex husband. It all started with a post that posted of Facebook, grant it  shouldn't have said it the way I did, but I didn't mean for it to cause what happened today. I want go into details, but it ended up with my son and my daughter getting very upset with me and getting into an yelling match with his current wife. After time we calmed down enough to talk things through.

My ex and I haven't been able to communicate since the divorce and it always ends up in a big argument or drama getting started from it. I am not saying that I am not a part of it, but I never wanted to hurt my kids. I didn't really realize until today how much it was affecting them. I knew something has been my son these past couple of times he was with me, but he would never talk to me. Come to find out it was because he didn't want to hurt my feelings. He loved me that much to not say anything. When I found that out, it was like my heart dropped. I have always told all my kids that they can come talk to  me and I wouldn't get angry, but I guess they haven't totally realized that.


Divorce is hard on any child, no matter what age they are. But when you got two parents that are not willing to communicate with one another for the child's sake it makes it that harder for the children. I am willing to talk to my ex and get this resolved or at least be civil, but from what I found out today he hates me so much, that he doesn't want to do that right now.  The sad part is yes, I have made mistakes throughout the divorce, but I the reasons why he hates me, I wasn't the total cause of it. But its to late to make him realize that now.


Word of advice: No matter how hard your divorce was or how much you are angry with your ex, let it go. Because if you don't that resentment and anger will only eat you up and it will individually start effecting your kids.  I held onto the anger for 4 years and not only did it affect my kids, but it affected my marriage and myself. 


Until next time..