I think I have lost my mind!

 

Today, I literally went postal on my husband. Yelling, screaming, throwing things, saying hurtful things to him. It all started because something he said rub me the wrong way and it was just a little thing. I am not usually this way and i don't like it when I get this way, it seems lately I have been on edge about everything and I am not myself. I have alot going on in my life right now and I guess everything is starting to catch up with me.

I used to have a real bad temper, but I learned to control it but lately I have been seeing it come out more and  I don't like that side of me. I have lot of build up anger inside of me and it isn't towards my husband, but I take it out on him. It isn't fair to him and I hate myself for doing it.

But today I think I have made a break thru and realize why I am so angry, so now its up to me to fix it. It may mean pissing people off along the way, but I am willing to take that risk. I have let everybody and everything control my life for so long, now its time to take that control back.

So let me give you a word of advice, if you are angry at something and its eating you up "DON'T TAKE OUT ON THE ONES YOU LOVE" because in the end you will regret it. Also take that control back and do whatever you have too to let go of that anger, even if it means confronting the situation or person your angry at.

Just some words of wisdom.. until next time..

Another job interview

Woohoo, I got another job interview Wednesday at a local bath store.  Got the call today, altho not going to get my hopes up to high considering what happened with my last interview. I told my husband and he looks at me with a  said face and saids " why isn't anyone calling me back" poor guy :) I honestly don't know why he isn't getting any calls back considering he has more work experience then I do. To be honest I rather work from home, but we need the money. I am tired of not having any money to go buy a gallon a of milk or put gas in our car. Sometimes you gotta scarfice to get where you want to be.  So hopefully all goes well on my interview, providing I don't choke :)  Filling out the applications is the wasy part, but trying to convience them to hire you is the hardest part.  Unless your those types of person that can sell like toliet paper to a perfect stranger on the street for $10.  Hmm.. I am so not that type of person lol. Well.. wish me luck and I will post on here what happens.


Until next time..

Getting a new facelift!

I have decided to give my blog an new look, so bare with me while I finish tweaking it :) I have neglected the blog to long.  So keep checking back and I hope you like the new look!

Its been awhile, time to vent!

Anywho, to break things down for ya.. my husband and I bought a trailer about a month ago. Paid cash with settlement money I got for an work related injury.. but after the trailer was bought and the new furniture, etc. didn' leave hardly any money left. Well now we are practically broke. My husband and I have been trying to find a job about 4 weeks now and for some reason these managers are overlooking us and my husband has the experience. I can understand why they would overlook me because I don't have alot of work experience, due to being a stay at home mom since my kids was young. luckily we get some income coming in with my husbands ssi checks, bt by the time we pay our lot rent and what bills we can pay.. it doesn't leave us with much. Its hard to make very little money stretch out for a full month


Its getting frustrating to know end. I am constantly looking on the computer for jobs and daily submitting applications. I had on interview, but even though I had the experience for that job they overlooked me because of my lapse in work history. My husband had one manager say they will call him back, only to not get that phone call. I mean seriously what is going on in this world? Do you have to literally beg and grovel to get a job now days? Honestly, I am tired of busting my butt everything trying to find any job, only to get overlooked. Now I know why alot of people start working from home, I am conserdng that myself. But that will take a while to get going and we need the money now. Has anyone been having that same issue? If so,please let me know I am not alone. :)